Okay...I am beyond confused right now. Yes we are in our 20's, but my friends have convinced me to dress up with them as our favorite characters from Naruto. I am NOT a big fan of this show by any means, they all watch it religiously though it seems. Anyway, I figured why not go have some fun for a day, because you never know when it'll all end. So we decided we'd get together to make plans for our costumes and such, so my friend Jodie invited her guy friend along since he's doing it as well. It just so happens my character is obsessed with his character so I get to glomp him whenever I see him while we're dressed up. FUN. I saw him and thought he was kinda cute and he was nice enough. He was giving us all massages in the car and he helped my clenched up hand feel better temporarily. He has the same tastes in music as I do, he even likes Nickelback which is HUGE in my book because they are my absolute favorite band. Still as of yet have to get him into Dommin. Now the issue is the fact that today he told me that he likes me too. So I'm supposed to feel happy right? Well I'm just kinda mellow about the whole thing...he called me before the text exchange that led to his confession but I ignored it because I'm a whimp and was too afraid to talk to him over the phone. Just a bit ago he texted and asked if he could call and I just told him tomorrow would be better because I'm not feeling too well right now. I can see that I'm avoiding the whole situation and I don't know why. For one thing, things that happened to me in the past have prevented me from being able to open up to anyone, guys especially. I'm terrified of committing myself to someone and I have a hard time wanting to give someone else my trust. They have to earn my trust and I mean really earn it. I obviously have issues...issues that I know need to be taken care of. Someone already suggest counseling, mostly because I'm still scared to let people touch me. But maybe that will also help me with my guy issues. I'm just scared that the bastards from my past have ruined me for good. I know I can heal but I also know that those scars will always remain. Back to the issue with Clinton...maybe I didn't know my own feelings until now...maybe I just jumped at the chance of finally getting what I want, a guy like me, and getting it wasn't all it was cracked up to be. But at the same time, I found out the other night my friend Kacee has a crush on him too and I found myself getting jealous...even more so when she said he asked for her number and called her twice. Today I told her about him saying that he liked and I can tell it upset her. Oh and she's seriously annoying me by saying her phone's better, grow the fuck up! Anyway, not to change subject, but I am very confused and upset right now. Just need someone who cares to actually listen to me and talk to me.

Reading back on this, I feel like I'm still in high school...well ignoring the situation with the guy, there's still some serious underlining issues that I need to fix or else I'm ruined for life...

Okay so I thought I'd start my own thread because I didn't want to take over the other one with all my crap...not really crap, but random writings, mostly poems but also some lyrics. I'm a bit iffy about posting lyrics online, but I trust my fellow Domminites so they shall be here in the near future!

This one is pretty much untitled...

Open up your soul and invite me in, Show me how to feel again.

Open up your heart and let me in, Show me how to love again.

Open up your arms and take me in, Tell me you love me again.

Posted this in the Dommin Fan Art thread...

~*Bloody Kisses*~

Bloody kisses, The creature hisses. Day turns to night, As darkness envelops the light. My heart I give to him, My one true sin is his dying hymn. His voice is like a symphony to my ears, Taking away my darkest fears. His music plays straight to my heart, And I know we will never part. What a true dark love this is, As we share our first of many bloody kisses.

More to come soon!

Okay I thought that since there's a thread for bands you've seen live, why not have one for bands and artists you've actually met?

Nickelback - Chad Kroeger twice, Ryan Peake twice, Mike Kroeger three times, and Daniel Adair twice. Nickelback Crew - Timmy (Guitar Tech), Shuu (Bass tech), and Hawk (Guard) a few times Dommin - Once Tyler Connelly from Theory of A Deadman - Once Brent Smith & Barry Kerch from Shinedown - Once All of Halestorm - Once The Leo Project - Twice Shaun Morgan & Troy McLawhorn from Seether - Once Aaron Fink from Breaking Benjamin - Once Black Oxygen - Once Brett Ditgen from Red Line Chemistry - Once Chris Daughtry - Once and he was drunk, LOL!! Nathan Hunt from Shaman's Harvest - Twice Drummer from Shaman's Harvest - Once (Can't remember his name) Vivian Campbell from Def Leppard - Once

I am extremely thankful and I am hoping for more opportunities like this at the upcoming Nickelback concert! I'd love to hear about who everyone else has met!